Summary, I'm not happy.
Don't know how to get happy... Life is miserable. I tear up at random times and I feel like I'm losing control.
The only thing that I have no control over is my future. I'm burned out of school, I can't even be in the studio for more than 3 hours w/o getting tired or bored.
Work is work. The new lifeguards are horrible, they're too young. Immaturity is something I can't stand when working w/ people.
I got my Praxis score back, I didn't pass. 4th time. That one point is alluding me. I haven't gotten my math score yet so, there's hope (at least that's what my mom says) but I'm not counting on it.
I don't know what to count on anymore. Even Josh is perplexing me. Relationship wise we're fine, it's the future (yet again) that's scaring me. He wants to travel for a couple of years (through a job).
Where does that leave me? It leaves me to tend to my unknown. Alone.
I'm not sure what scares me more.
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