"If you wanted to quit. Today's the day. Don't wait. Just leave!"
I was like... oh yeah that's encouraging.
Well, i found out that there was a good reason for anyone to want to quit today.
Cuz it was hell.
Damn. i can't walk up hills now. Much less move...
I shouldn't have worked out...
mehhhhhh
i hurt so fucking bad. And i should sleep. *yawns* oh man, that would be bliss.
I had a very good converstaion w/ Sara (quad mate).
Last week when we went to Baja (club) and some drunks were messing w/ me... they apparently took it pretty hard.
I mean, i didn't know of it today, but they are really defensive of me. Emily (sara's roomie/my quad mate) said to Sara that if anyone teased me or gave me a hard time that she'd kill 'em.
And for Em, i mean, that's kinda weird coming from her. She's, well, you typical blond, but way cooler.
And i was telling Sara why i get quiet around ppl i don't know. Being quiet and unnoticed is my defence. If you don't know me, then you can't hurt me.
I never really looked at it that way before until today. I have known i've had defenses. The fact that it takes a lot of time for me to trust ppl is one.
Sara just told me that i was such a nice grl, and that i shouldn't be afraid. But, the fact that i don't notice it, and that it's been part of me for yrs now... is going to be hard to break.
I can't help but want to go into a corner.
I don't even think i could break it...
my opinion of Sara has changed a lil since out talk today.
But for the most part, now i think she's a better person that i thought.
CheZ
Oh, and now i have a sun setting in my hair, according to Sara.
Note to self: If i'm going to change at all, i need to be less critical of others.